A few days before the new year break, I was called by my boss to sign my 2006 performance appraisal. She gave me a very good mark for someone who just worked for 3 years. And she also said that she 's going to nominate me for the Anugerah Khidmat Cemerlang . Wow, truthfully, I am very honoured. Even if I don't get the anugerah, at least my boss thinks that I 've done an excellent job through out the year. Looking at my records, she said that I am a strong candidate and most likely I could get the award. But on the other hand, ... ahhh.. this 'on the other hand' thing really made me sad.
Well, on the other hand, she said she doesn't know how to defend me if the state director doesn't want to reward me for I don't portray a good image to the department. Most of u will be wondering by now, what kind of person this naa is? hmm ..performed excellently in her work but her image is not good?? hmm.. ok.. , it so happened that i am working for a department where we are all supposed to be very healthy people. why? because our job is to treat sick people, and i guess being unhealthy or not having a healthy look is going to tarnish the name of the department.
And now u must be wondering how bad my image is?
Brace yourself for ..guys, actually....
>I don't have the ideal weight for my height!!<
ok.. stop laughing .. enough... yeah.. really funny..
but this is the truth, whether u want to believe it or not.
We have goals for body mass index and mine is a far cry from the new ideal BMI for asians.
maybe the state director is right.. i should shake off some pounds for a start. that would make a good new year resolution!
but the truth is.. deep down in my delicate heart.. ( ouch.. why am i being touchy here?) it hurts.
it hurts when people do not want to recognize your good work and effort just because u don't have the ideal weight.
it hurts.
4 comments:
Hi Naa,
Lama tak dengar from each other. Heyy..CONGRATS for the nomination. Well done.
Ahh..you know I am struggling trying to rid of 10 lbs. I read, just don't think about it. The more we are obsessed about it the more difficult it gets. Just do some light exercises like run up the stairs and don't take the lift, park further and walk, eat sensibly and whistle along and voila! it seem we will get there..ha ha..if only it were really that easy eh!
thanks for the tips k.ruby.. now i know ur slimming secret.. heheheh..
That is absurd isn't it...bmi has nothing to do with work performance. You can be skinny and lazy.
Thanks Fatimah! You're so sweet :)
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